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well its not like i can do anything i wish i could.  im so depressed that i cant even think straight .  i finally almost got a ticket because i asked a friend who talks to her if i could send one message through her... onetime  and she told that person if i did i would get a ticket ... she wont even entertain one thing from me ....... i still dont know what was THAT bad to warrant all this .. ya i went to her house...ok i have apologized and explain that sooo many times.  ok so she thinks i followed her .. the moment i found out about that i texted her and told her that i wasnt  but i guess even though i have treid till i was blue in the face to explain everything i have or have not done and get her to understand she doesnt listen to what i say ... she cant even acknowledge that im talking to her .... hell if i was broke down on the side of the road she would prolly laugh at me as she drove by ... i mean seriously>>>>>   i keep asking myself what would she think if i was in an accident and hurt ... would she regret not talking to me or would she throw a party ( and no im not going to get in an accident) but the things she has been doing  makes me wonder .... all i want is friendship to have her to talk to.... i cant believe thats soo hard to be.... i just cant stand this..............